i am really confused. am i in the wrong?

am i the one with problem.

i dont mind changing if im the one at fault.

i was offended, all i need was apology.

i don't mean it when i stop speaking to her.

i only felt it's more appropriate to talk or discuss more on project.

i don't want to be offended and i don't want to say mean words to anyone.

is this so hard to understand?

this misunderstanding is getting worst and worst everyday, this group is no longer a group.

member does things on one's own without discussion with the rest of the mates.

is this teamwork? after all this is a group, a team with more than one person.

i truly hope that she can be enlighten and knows what she had done wrongly or done right.

speaking to her directly is too tough.

i don't want to offend anyone, really i don't.

i just want to spend my project school month peacefully, fruity and in harmony.

chewy. - need to be understand.

nad nad turned twenty. ((:

nowadays me & my poly babes keep web window shopping.
and tonight i just made a purchase for this patchwork skirt.
which i have been waiting for quite sometime. loving it. ((:

now checking out more.
my wallet is burstin.
need my paycheck badly. please~

25th is going tobe SPECIAL for my lovely michelle(michael).
>.<
surprise~

daddy's birthday was on the 22th. and i bought him a casio watch
which is kind of needed it, as his old one casing broke.

hee. still owing my bro $60 for his awesome speakers. i am broke.

chewy- needs money.

last night was intense and frightening for me.
alone in the room, using the com.
suddenly i heard persistent banging and knocking.
it sounded outside my house, took a peek thru the door hole.
two gangsterly looking guys knocking and hitting the doors & windows
with all their might.
demanded my neighbours to come out of the hse.
shouted faster come out.
frightened to death, i went to parents' room to call for help.
mommy!. got loan sharks disturbing the neighbours.
huhs. orh.
she went up to check it out too.
she was as frightened as me. we almost pee in our shorts.
ha.
i woke up daddy to tel him bout it.
he stood up and went to the door.
he OPENED the door!. the guys asked if anyone in?
dad replied no.
out of the sudden, the doorbell rang!.
phew its my brother.
i keep my voice super low just in case they can't hear me(the gangsters i mean).
quickly went to bathe and sleep thru out the night.

yurks. freaking night.
i bet my neighbours are too embarrassed to even talk to say anymore.
>.<
mom said some one called the police.
the rest of the story i am not sure. heck.
irritating. no $$ no brain. opps.

chewy. swimming rocks.

yeah i went to register for my basic TT and my test is on the 3rd of sept.
i am so excited and i am going to attend trial e test before my actual paper.
just to be sure that i am going to pass for the 1st time.
i am worried even though myboyboy says its easy. just in case anything happen. ((:
i am worried for my practical lesson, what if i crash the car? or kill the instructor. maybe i am just thinking too much.
i want to attend three lessons per week, within my 1.5 mths of holis i will complete 18 lessons.
((: then when school reopens, it will be two per week.
i will be completing in one mth plus time.
i am so in control of my driving schedule. ((: very freaking excited. wish me luck.

aww. i asked my bf to get me fried fish slice soup with thin beehoon.
he got me fried fish slice soup with thick beehoon.
i told him this was thick ones, he replied," oh. it seems smaller than usual so i thought it was thin."
i was so angry, fuming mad. thin beehoon=mee fen. -.- how silly was he?
i knew that thick beehoon was very hard for me to consume as i was a lousy user of the CHINESE CHOPSTICK. the noodle would be flipping around the bowl and not into my spoon.
he asked if i wanted him to buy another bowl of what i desired but i have no intention for him to get another as i wanted him to change it instead. it was the uncle's fault not him, why should he be the one buying the right one again?
we were both pretty silent thru out the whole meal.
i showed him it was very hard to eat, i ended up finishing the fish and not the noodle. sigh.

on the bus, i argued with him and asked him why didn't he want to change it instead?
i brought up old past like the popcorn case to support my statement that he cared nore for bout his 'face' instead of me.
he said that if cust ask him to change another dish, he will super mad.
to the extent that he will ring his FRIEND to nag and complain bout that customer. (i knew friend comes before me, they are more ur helping support.)
i asked if he was at fault. he didn't replied.
so i assumed he was at fault, then the cust had the authority and right to ask for a change.
he was the one serving,
the cust should received what he/she ordered.
i wasn't speaking nonsense and ridicilous things.
it were all facts and truly truth.
why can't i just have a nice meal of what i want?
he apologised and i wasn't prepared to accept his apology.
he told me that he can't change into what i want him to be, but still he will try to compromise with me.
i so know what that means. it's = not changing and everything stays the same.
he still pays less attention when it comes to getting my food.
i am so good in prediction.
i even told him i can't trust him things to do before we went to have dinner at bedok.
what must it be so true?

chewy. forget it. i see no point at all.

am i tan or fair?





why am i still lying to myself that im tan.
i am super duper fair, compared with yvonne, layting, michelle
and nadiah(tan cus of her race), i am the fairest of them all.
woww i sound like a snow white. just that i am not a princess type.
look at me i am like a sheet of plain white paper.
i need sun. shine some healthy rays on me.

went sim lim to purchase our project items
& headed to orchard to let michelle has her awesome haircut
at ICON.

and i had the oily curry in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.
i kind of complaint to michelle, she shh me up.
cos it was a muslim stall. mustn't be too loud.
ohman. so have eaten the fab chicken rice instead. (but its non halal.)
arghh. i need chicken rice to grow &
NOT oily curry chicken rice.
sobsob. i think i just gained one lb for that meal ((:











they are all enjoying the watermelon flavoured chewing gums,
nadiah secretly brought back from JB.
it has 3 flavours (watermelon, strawberry and berry)i think.
nadiah thinks that they look like highlighter colors.
SO TRUE. love the green one.
sadly there isn't any of my photo cus i can't have them
due to my bands in my braces.
saddening. )):

chewy. i miss my roasted boneless chicken rice. (or breast meat)
dear don't cry over my angry words. i'm sorry. i just wrote what i felt at that pt of time.
i never gave my words much consideration whether it was absolutely true or not.
i entrust myself to u & i am sure we can work out just fine. ((: cheer up, crybaby boyboy. ha.

its not mine. it's my bro's. it's so CUTE.








mom loves her orchids.



crazy picture.